Grief of Different Forms but Grief Just the Same

Grief seems to come in many different forms and is never easy no mater what the source of the grief. Grief is the result of loss, emotional suffering from losing someone or something that is important to you. It could be the result of losing someone you love, losing a job or career, the home you grew up in or you’re home now, the loss of financial security, a pet, your health or the health of someone close to you, or even the loss of a cherished dream.

Empty Nest Syndrome is a term for the feelings of depression, sadness, loneliness and loss of purpose parents feel when their children leave home. There doesn’t seem to be a term to explain the same feelings when you lose a parent or parents to a disease such as Alzheimer’s. I feel that with the growing number of adult children taking care of their parents there will eventually be a term for this as well.

Many people in the more advanced stages of Alzheimer’s are here physically and not as much mentally as they were before the onset of the disease. Speaking from my own experience with my Mom, she is stronger physically, due to walking constantly. Mom use to spend her days sitting in the chair while looking out the window, watching T.V., or talking on the phone. Now though she can’t sit still for more than a minute before she is up and walking. She has lost weight and has firmed up her muscles due to the walking all day and part of the night. Mentally though, Mom can not carry a conversation with you, most of the time only a one word answer to whatever question you may ask and her memory changes from one day to the next.  

This is where grief comes in for me, Mom use to always have something to talk about, not that she talked too much. She could carry a conversation even though you didn’t have anything to talk about yourself. I use to call her when ever I just wanted to connect with someone. She never seemed to mind and I never seem to be interrupting her, even if I was. I could call anytime night or day.  Listening to her talk or talking with her would give me the connection I wanted, and even though I connected with others it was different than connecting with my mom.

One of the hard parts about this disease is that your loved one is here physically but mentally a different person and sometimes completely different than what they were. It plays tricks with your mind and feelings, because you see them and expect the person you know and love and they are not the same. This makes the grieving process continue constantly. Instead of going through the phases of grief that you would have if it was a death or a final moment of loss.

Each one of us grieves differently due to our back grounds, personality, faith and our perspective on life. There is no time table on grief or the healing of grief, it is important to allow yourself times to express your feelings. It helps with the process to have someone to go through it with you, that you can talk to and that will allow you to express what you are feeling with out being critical. This is where you can develop or strengthen a connection with a family member, friend or even a life coach. Remember not to isolate yourself during this time, allow others to be there for you, it helps them and you. Grief seems to come in many different forms and is never easy no mater what the source of the grief. Grief is the result of loss, emotional suffering from losing someone or something that is important to you. It could be the result of losing someone you love, losing a job or career, the home you grew up in or you’re home now, the loss of financial security, a pet, your health or the health of someone close to you, or even the loss of a cherished dream.

Empty Nest Syndrome is a term for the feelings of depression, sadness, loneliness and loss of purpose parents feel when their children leave home. There doesn’t seem to be a term to explain the same feelings when you lose a parent or parents to a disease such as Alzheimer’s. I feel that with the growing number of adult children taking care of their parents there will eventually be a term for this as well.

Many people in the more advanced stages of Alzheimer’s are here physically and not as much mentally as they were before the onset of the disease. Speaking from my own experience with my Mom, she is stronger physically, due to walking constantly. Mom use to spend her days sitting in the chair while looking out the window, watching T.V., or talking on the phone. Now though she can’t sit still for more than a minute before she is up and walking. She has lost weight and has firmed up her muscles due to the walking all day and part of the night. Mentally though, Mom can not carry a conversation with you, most of the time only a one word answer to whatever question you may ask and her memory changes from one day to the next.  

This is where grief comes in for me, Mom use to always have something to talk about, not that she talked too much. She could carry a conversation even though you didn’t have anything to talk about yourself. I use to call her when ever I just wanted to connect with someone. She never seemed to mind and I never seem to be interrupting her, even if I was. I could call anytime night or day.  Listening to her talk or talking with her would give me the connection I wanted, and even though I connected with others it was different than connecting with my mom.

One of the hard parts about this disease is that your loved one is here physically but mentally a different person and sometimes completely different than what they were. It plays tricks with your mind and feelings, because you see them and expect the person you know and love and they are not the same. This makes the grieving process continue constantly. Instead of going through the phases of grief that you would have if it was a death or a final moment of loss.

Each one of us grieves differently due to our back grounds, personality, faith and our perspective on life. There is no time table on grief or the healing of grief, it is important to allow yourself times to express your feelings. It helps with the process to have someone to go through it with you, that you can talk to and that will allow you to express what you are feeling with out being critical. This is where you can develop or strengthen a connection with a family member, friend or even a life coach. Remember not to isolate yourself during this time, allow others to be there for you, it helps them and you.

Your Next Step

Check out the other page “Are You a Care giver?”  As your life coach I can help you get to the next step of your journey, if you are a care giver or not. Contact me if you are interested in having your personal life coach to start you on your way today.  When you sign up for 4 or more sessions the first session is free.

Alzheimer’s/ Dementia

       One of the hardest things in the beginning of this terrible disease, is to admit it is happening, weather it is you or a loved one. It seems that it is easier to chalk it up to age, or being tired, or over stressed. Then when it continues and progresses, we have to face it and take steps to help and care for the ones we love. I remember this time well about two years ago, when things started happening with my mom. I denied it was anything except age and her wanting attention. Then as things started happening more often, I became concerned and took her to the doctors. I knew very little about Alzheimer’s and had no idea what to expect or do. After several test, days from work, time in traveling ( I lived 2 hours away), I had the diagnosis “Alzheimer’s”!!!!!!! Now what do I do and how do I go about it? There were so many questions, for which I had no answers and Mom was in denial herself. She wouldn’t talk to me about it or even listen to me. She would just get angry and walk away. This started the anger stage for her.

    I will continue about my experience with this terrible disease later in another post. I was reading today a short story by Cecil Murphey in his book “When Someone You Love No Longer Remembers” and I wanted to share it for those that are still in the denial stage, hopefully it will be of some comfort to you.

“She No Longer Remembers” 

    ” Barry didn’t want to believe his wife had dementia. “She’s a little forgetful,” he said before he changed the subject.

It’s more than being a little forgetful. For a long time Barry had to say those words to himself because he couldn’t say them aloud.

Despite what his head knew, his heart fought the information. That’s another way to express denial. To admit that her condition was more than forgetfulness also forced him to admit there would be no improvement. She will remember less next week than she does today.

For a long time Barry tried to cover for her, but eventually her condition became obvious. More and more often, friends asked questions about her behavior or her odd word choices.

“She no longer remembers,” he finally said to a friend.

The confused look made Barry realize that he had to explain, but he could force out only three words: “She….can’t….remember…”

His voice cracked and the friend spoke the forbidden word: “Alzheimer’s?”

Barry nodded because his emotions hadn’t allowed him to pronounce it.

The friend embraced him. “I’m sorry for her… I also know this will be a heavy burden on you shoulders.”

Barry smiled then-perhaps for the first time in three months. My friend understands.

That was the beginning of being open and facing the reality, True, she no longer remembers, but it’s more than that. She has dementia, but she has Barry beside her to walk down the road of no longer remembering.

Most of all, God walks with both of them through the deep, dark valley.

She no longer remembers, but I do. Remembering her as she once was gives me courage to face who she is becoming.

It helps during the beginning stages for both the person with alzheimer’s / dementia, and the person care taking for them to tell the stories that made them laugh from the near past and far past. This helps keep some of the connections and lightens the moments, which makes it a little easier  for both to deal on a daily basis. This made a big difference with my mom, because there are times when that is the only expression I can get from her these days.

 

 

Why Dolphins?

These are amazing mammals, they are intelligent, playful, curious, and stay with their families for life. I look at dolphins gliding through the water as a peaceful site, and they always seem to be smiling. While their approach to life is playful and seemingly carefree, I also see them as achieving their dreams or purpose. Dolphins don’t seem to worry about their predators or where their next meal will be, they just go about playing and exploring their world along, with their family.No matter what is happening in our lives or the ones we love, we should use our intelligence, remain playful, curious, facing the world with a smile along side our families while achieving our purpose for being here.

(photo from Wild for Wild Life and Natures Photos)