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Sometimes the vastness of life becomes an overwhelming prospect
I hold my growth in my hands
I look down at it, and wonder things like \u201cshouldn\u2019t it be more?\u201d Or \u201cWhen will I finally learn?\u201d
With life sometimes feeling like a tiny series of battles within one big battle
And the soreness in my body giving testament to the toll that it has taken<\/p>\n
Sometimes I wake up with the burden of bills, overcommitment, and a nagging, rootless guilt orbiting my head, hovering, threatening to crush me
And being aware of it just being too much, I throw it off in a mix of exhaustion and exasperation
The feeling of surrender no longer seeming like weakness, but rather like\u2026 \u201cthis feels so right – I\u2019m not meant to carry burdens alone, to feel like my worth and strength is in how much I can carry.\u201d
I revel in the release and I conjure the image of a kind, capable friend with superpowers, and I say to that friend \u201chere, hold this for me, will you? I just can\u2019t right now\u201d<\/p>\n
And this friend picks up the bundle and says \u201cwhat took you so long?\u201d<\/p>\n
And I think \u201cpride, stubbornness, taking being independent to the extreme.\u201d But I say nothing out loud, and just relax under the lightness of it all.<\/p>\n
I notice that my bundle is still tightly packed – in a large white sheet. I have yet to learn how to unpack it, and how to offload it bit by bit.
I think a part of me wants to know that I can take it back at any given moment.<\/p>\n
Baby steps.<\/p>\n
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Sometimes the vastness of life becomes an overwhelming prospectI hold my growth in my handsI look down at it, and wonder things like \u201cshouldn\u2019t it be more?\u201d Or \u201cWhen will I finally learn?\u201dWith life sometimes feeling like a tiny series of battles within one big battleAnd the soreness in my body giving testament to the […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":4272,"featured_media":1444,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_et_pb_use_builder":"on","_et_pb_old_content":"
<\/pre>\r\nSometimes the vastness of life becomes an overwhelming prospect\r\nI hold my growth in my hands\r\nI look down at it, and wonder things like \u201cshouldn\u2019t it be more?\u201d Or \u201cWhen will I finally learn?\u201d\r\nWith life sometimes feeling like a tiny series of battles within one big battle\r\nAnd the soreness in my body giving testament to the toll that it has taken\r\n\r\nSometimes I wake up with the burden of bills, overcommitment, and a nagging, rootless guilt orbiting my head, hovering, threatening to crush me\r\nAnd being aware of it just being too much, I throw it off in a mix of exhaustion and exasperation\r\nThe feeling of surrender no longer seeming like weakness, but rather like\u2026 \u201cthis feels so right - I\u2019m not meant to carry burdens alone, to feel like my worth and strength is in how much I can carry.\u201d\r\nI revel in the release and I conjure the image of a kind, capable friend with superpowers, and I say to that friend \u201chere, hold this for me, will you? I just can\u2019t right now\u201d\r\n\r\nAnd this friend picks up the bundle and says \u201cwhat took you so long?\u201d\r\n\r\n\"\"Woman Carrying Burden. Created with the help of AI.<\/span>\r\n\r\nAnd I think \u201cpride, stubbornness, taking being independent to the extreme.\u201d But I say nothing out loud, and just relax under the lightness of it all.\r\n\r\nI notice that my bundle is still tightly packed - in a large white sheet. I have yet to learn how to unpack it, and how to offload it bit by bit.\r\nI think a part of me wants to know that I can take it back at any given moment.\r\n\r\nBaby steps.","_et_gb_content_width":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[9],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-356","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-support"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ctacoaches.com\/awecoach\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/356","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ctacoaches.com\/awecoach\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ctacoaches.com\/awecoach\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ctacoaches.com\/awecoach\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/4272"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ctacoaches.com\/awecoach\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=356"}],"version-history":[{"count":6,"href":"https:\/\/www.ctacoaches.com\/awecoach\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/356\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1445,"href":"https:\/\/www.ctacoaches.com\/awecoach\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/356\/revisions\/1445"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ctacoaches.com\/awecoach\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/1444"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.ctacoaches.com\/awecoach\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=356"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ctacoaches.com\/awecoach\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=356"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.ctacoaches.com\/awecoach\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=356"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}