Month: August 2025

I don’t know if it has anything with being sensitive, but I am easily frustrated. I think that things should be easier to do than they are. I don’t know why. When it is harder to do than expected or takes longer to do than expected, I get unusually frustrated. My pop did too. As a kid, I did not understand. I do now. I understand a lot of things now I did not before.

Sometimes it is even really stupid things that get me frustrated. It could be something as stupid as dropping a towel on the floor or getting some clothing stuck on a door or drawer handle. And yet, other times, the same things don’t bother me at all. I guess it is all about the mood.

Sometimes it is a bigger issue. Sometimes it is something like calling someone for help like customer service and you just can’t get help. Or maybe it is filling out an online form telling someone you want more information and they don’t respond. Then I wonder why is there an online form if no one responds. Or maybe it is trying to get help with your taxes not being filed and the person who is supposed to help won’t talk to you.

When frustrated, I respond one of two ways I may simply say some “bad” word and then it is over. Other times I may go on a rant for a while. Then when I am worn out I stop.

Sometimes I really wonder why I get so frustrated. I try to understand. I evaluate the emotions. Normally, I just don’t know. On the big things I think it may have something to do with the saying “Do unto others as you would have done unto you”. The thing is that I would treat others way better than they treat me. I would be more considerate. I would have sympathy and/or empathy. I would say “I’m sorry”. I would keep people up to date on my progress in helping them.

Anyway, that is my life. So frustrating.

Today is 8/13/25 and the people did my taxes have not filed them. I know that my state taxes have not been filed, but I am uncertain about the federal return.

On 3/3/25, I thought all was fine. The forms were filled out. The man said I don’t have to pay because the refund from the state will pay the fees.

It was on 7/28/25 that I became concerned when I got a bill for the fees. I called and they hung up on me. On 7/29/25 I called to let them know that the state taxes had not been filed. I called the state tax board because I wanted to know what happened to my refund.

The district office who sent the bill refuses to talk to me. My only connection is one of the Vice Presidents I found on LinkedIn.

This is so ridiculous. They should have this taken care of by now. The people in this district who are working on it have questions. What questions? Everything was fine on 3/3/25. If they have questions, they should ask ME.

Last thought is Jackson Hewitt sucks.

I would guess it has been in the neighborhood of two months now that my neighbors have a new dog. She was a stray they took in. They have 2 other dogs. These other dogs are exclusively indoor dogs. They only come out to do their business which is often in my front yard (including poop not picked up).

The new dog is exclusively outdoors. I don’t think they ever let her inside. Sensitive soul me is very disturbed by this.

One, dogs are pack animals. We are their pack. This sweet girl is being excluded from the pack. I would guess it makes her sad. The only time she is with anyone is when someone comes out to the patio to smoke or maybe when they come out in the evenings to be outside. I don’t even care if they are noisy all night long as it gives her company.

Two, she is bored. It breaks my heart to hear her in the morning crying. I know she would like to play through the fence with my dog. But they don’t want her to bark. So not only is she denied the chance to play my dog can’t play or have fun either. Furthermore, I don’t want to do anything to get her to bark because I don’t want them to get angry with her. So, the weirdo I am, I tiptoe around my yard to keep the noise down.

I know that is nuts to most people. But, that’s how I am. Do I care too much? I don’t know. I probably do. But I feel for her in my soul. I don’t know how to be any other way, and maybe I don’t want to be any other way.

I would guess it has been in the neighborhood of two months now that my neighbors have a new dog. She was a stray they took in. They have 2 other dogs. These other dogs are exclusively indoor dogs. They only come out to do their business which is often in my front yard (including poop not picked up).

The new dog is exclusively outdoors. I don’t think they ever let her inside. Sensitive soul me is very disturbed by this.

One, dogs are pack animals. We are their pack. This sweet girl is being excluded from the pack. I would guess it makes her sad. The only time she is with anyone is when someone comes out to the patio to smoke or maybe when they come out in the evenings to be outside. I don’t even care if they are noisy all night long as it gives her company.

Two, she is bored. It breaks my heart to hear her in the morning crying. I know she would like to play through the fence with my dog. But they don’t want her to bark. So not only is she denied the chance to play my dog can’t play or have fun either. Furthermore, I don’t want to do anything to get her to bark because I don’t want them to get angry with her. So, the weirdo I am, I tiptoe around my yard to keep the noise down.

I know that is nuts to most people. But, that’s how I am. Do I care too much? I don’t know. I probably do. But I feel for her in my soul. I don’t know how to be any other way, and maybe I don’t want to be any other way.

I used to hear couples say they were getting divorced because they were growing apart. I never got that until now.

I am on a very special journey. I am growing as a person, as a spiritual being. That’s great and all. I am very happy with the person I am growing into. The hard part is that I don’t have anyone on this path with me.

I don’t have anyone with whom to talk about my thoughts or experiences. At the same time, my friends would not understand. More than that, the one person with whom I am the closest, her journey is pretty much the opposite belief system. We could never discuss these contradicting beliefs.

It really makes me feel so alone. I want to share my growth, but I have no audience. Maybe it is just a journey for one. Maybe it is just the sort of journey one takes alone? But I really think that any road one takes is best taken with another.