Have you ever felt like you were making so much progress in your life and then setback after setback keeps on happening?? Some of these setbacks are a result of poor planning, others are the result of unrealistic expectations, and others are just the result of the natural part of life. At times these challenges/trials can come on with such intensity and ferocity that the only thing you can do is hold on to whatever faith in a higher power you have or belief in to get you through. This is what I’ve been experiencing recently.
My Fibro experience
For the past year and a half, I have been building myself back up from a perceived failure. At that time, I was working as a psychiatric technician on a behavioral health unit, I was training and studying to become a licensed addictions professional. I believe I’ve told this story before, so the short of the long of it is I was at my dream internship and then was let go, due to inability to perform the required tasks. I attributed this to my newly confirmed diagnosis of fibromyalgia and the stressors causing my symptoms to flare-up at the time. On came the feeling of failure, depression, worthlessness, etc. However, this crushing fall led to something far greater; a knowledge of who I really am and what I’m really dealing with. You see I thought I was just dealing with anxiety/depression, but the real culprit is/was fibromyalgia.
The Fibro refining process
Once I began to pick up the pieces of yet another perceived failure in my life. I started to learn all I could about fibromyalgia. That was my life’s work for the past 2 years. Learning to do what I needed to heal. This is a process. Once I felt strong enough, I decided to take on two very challenging, yet different endeavors. The first is a calling in my ward of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I’m a singing music leader for kids ages 4-11. I thought this would be great for me. I love to sing. Well, little did I know this experience is stretching me further than I’ve ever been stretched before with a calling. There’s the getting up in front of people, which my social anxiety doesn’t like, the planning, prepping, performing, executing, attending to the kids, etc. Wow, that’s a lot. The other is me starting this fibromyalgia coaching business. Now, I’m pretty experienced with fibromyalgia and what to do to treat my symptoms. What I have next to zero experience in is marketing/ running a business. Which is a whole different challenge to deal with.
The Resolve
I’m not going to lie. Throughout these two very challenging endeavors. I’ve had thoughts to give up, I’ve walked and/or am walking through the valley of sorrow. Yet, I’m committed to keep moving forward no matter how many times I fall down and stumble. Fibromyalgia is a refining and journey and I’m learning to accept that. Plus, that’s where the greatest growth comes that enables me to scale yet another mountain.
What challenges are you currently facing in your life either with fibromyalgia or caring for a loved one with fibromyalgia? What is it about that challenge that helps you to want to keep moving forward and stay committed to the goals you have set?
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